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2008-10-06T21:10:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHH!

I need to vent out my frustration & worries right now.

I am struggling right here, with the crazy php codes.

Heard that, PHP CODES!!!!!

In case, you are wondering what PHP codes are ;

let me tell you, it's a type of progamming language similar to that of JAVA, PYTHON. just that it a bit related to html web pages.

Dont learn it. Its freak you out.

Heyy:

2008-09-18T00:03:00.000-07:00

I am really tired of putting in my efforts to change the way how thing are now. Whereas, all these doesn't matters to you at all.I feel like a sillyy fool,you kidda know? I am naive, to even think that it's might works when it is not going to help at all. Can't you at least show me some reactions or just tell me what's on your mind? Tell me, please don't keep everything to yourself anymore (:

Are you a normal human-being who have his own feelings & emotions?
I know there must be some reasons behind the fake external self that you are showing everyone. I am willing to listen, really.

God know, I am reallyy dead-beat.

that's me.

2008-09-15T21:51:00.000-07:00

I found this for my horoscope today at yahoo.

"Remain high-spirited even in the face of adversity. When you give in to the darkness it's harder to find the light. You are the master of your own destiny, so start acting like it. "

Somehow, I am starting to regret what I have done ytd midnight.
I shouldn't have make that decision ):
you see, I am always like that making decision without having any careful thoughts before that.
I seriously regret. why should I dwell so much on this when it's have already happens?
Now then I truely understood what the term " silly" mean by?

take my love & never break it.

HAPPY 18th birthday to me!

2008-09-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

Ohh, what a nice & beautiful cake!
looking at the cake and blowing off the candle, I made a wish,my 18th years old wish.

........................................

I wish...>>>peace to be always on earth,whereby there are no more nature disasters and man-kind disaster.
people get to enjoy life happily ever after.

I wish for... SHH* cant tell anyone about it (:
even if i know it's wont come true in real life. shall let it be, as it's meant to be just a wish.

At this very moment, I thought of you <3

By the way, I wanna express my gratitude to everyone who wished me happy brdae. Thanks for the wishes(:
I am really very happy to receive everyone's love!! HAHA~

Apart from that, I am really glad to be declared offically a 18 years old girl. I hope to really grow up as a mature & responsible individual.I shall reallyy work hard toward my dream!

ps.dont treat me as a little girl anymore although i am still not that old enough to be declared as a women.

URGH!

2008-09-10T14:24:00.000-07:00

just some random pictures taken ytd.
my body tend to be relatively weak these few days.
This happen just ytd when I start to have really bad headache follow by gastric pain which actually stop me from working.It's was so serious that I have to CALL STOP and went home after 2 & 1/2 hr of work. >.<>

a story by yongpyong.

2008-09-07T23:32:00.000-07:00

Ha. I will be going to ST for interview today.
This is my decision for e day.

call me crazy, but at least i am going to try.

I feeeeeel very tired these days, lacking of sleep.
I should find more time to sleep so that i be more alert during classes.

My mind is in a total mess these days.
Currently, my mind is going through a lot of stuffs and thoughts filled up my entire brain.
I cant concentrate as that well during classes & work.

..................................................................

She is so silly, to think of trying her best to fit into a shirt that doesnt suit her at all.
The shirt need a owner that suit it better than she do.
But, the owner cant give up a shirt so easily. As, she reallyy love that shirt very much.
So, what should she do?
so..........

She decided to give up now, in hope for better shirt that will suit her nicely.

although it doesn't seem long..

2008-09-04T05:45:00.000-07:00

11 days have passed.

what should i do?

2008-09-03T23:48:00.000-07:00

OMG, school start all over again.
meaning new semester, new class,once again ):

who ask you to come to rp here when u should have try even harder in the first place?
there's no cure to dwell over this anymore,just try your best.

My course only have like 5 class. so there's a high possibility that i might get into the same class with en & lyannda again. I've always have bad luck with picking lots. SAD*

Anyway, I guess i m going to be real busy soon if I pass the interview at ST. how am i going to plan my schedule so that it's fit in well in all 7 days? But, i guess i deserve it. who ask me to go for another interview when I alr have 2 jobs in hand to keep me busy throughout this year.

I also donnoe why i agree to go for e interview in e first place?maybe for the money? they paid pretty well for for 8 bucks per hr. It's really attracting me~ just as wat nic and fiona say, for the sake of our future. HAHAHA!!!!!

frend been telling me that i should quit one of my job if ST reallyy hire me. But, I am reallyy too used to working at Suki. I can be my own self there & i enjoy the company of the staffs there.
And, I know they all treat me really well.although, they may be fierce at times.

so tell me what should i do?

MY LIFE

2008-08-31T20:30:00.000-07:00

AHHH! I can't post my pictures ):

Anyway, just allow me to continuce with expressing my feelings.

school's reopening and i don't feel excited about it at all.In fact, I am starting to feel that I make the wrong choice in choosing to persue this diploma. What I want to do is designing and not more on web development or programming stuffs. Maybe, its time for me to change my mindset. I should think in this way. what i am learning now are all additional knowledge given to me so that i can be a designer who know more than just design. sometimes, having the mindset reallyy matters a lot. I should always have a positive mindset so that my life will be great.

Hmm..life've been reallyy fine these days. At least, I don't have the time now to dwell on some unnecessary stuffs that are not important,at all.

I guess gonna be bz again after sch re-open, having to cope with 2 jobs and my school stuffs.

But, I am not gonna give up that easily anymore since I've come this far alr.

This year have been a great year. at least, it's better than the previous year.

I learn a lot of stuffs, met a lot of ppl who share with me their past experiences,making me grow into a more mature individual.. and it's feel nice to be able to know u.

I am missing someone, so much.

Fish & Co outing for PJ's belated birthday!

2008-08-30T22:35:00.000-07:00

PJ & me !!!

Fish & Co outing at bugis for dinner,to celebrate PJ's belated birthday~

GIRL~ Happy belated birthday for 19th August 2008. I LOve you lots. Thanks for being always there with me to go thr all those happy and sad moments. Cheer to our 3 years friendship! I reallyy hope that our friendship will stay long long and I'll always be there for you when u need me. Just give me a call then (: No words can express the bond that I've for you. (GOSHH, I sound so lesssss) I hope you enjoy yourself on that day although it's reallyy a simple celebration.

Lastly, I wish that you'll find youself a nice guy soon cus you are a nice girl and i think that you deserve someone better ya (:

Last day of school

2008-08-14T03:43:00.000-07:00

LYDANNA,PEIEN

--I must really thanks the both of them for being my friend in this class.They are my best accompany in this class. I'm really glad to know them~ I loves you girls lots. Thanks for listening to me cracking silly jokes all these while."T" sign stand for toilet! Rmb that? haha (: I really hope that we can be in e same class again if possible. If not, let's stay in touch always.

Dear classmates: Thanks for the guidance and happy moments for the past one semester.It's been a pleasure to know you guys~ In my own opinion, i think that this's e best class among all my other classes.
Thanks & one thing that I must say to you all. I'll really miss you all <3 color="#ff0000">LOVES!!!!

See!!! I "fullished" my dream of becoming a art director!!!!
Haha, that's was just a problem statement for our module-Digital media design.
Classmate nominated me to take up the position. Just then, I realised that being a art director isn't a easy task. It require more than what that are needed. I am still learning how to be a good designer...give me 10 years, I might be able to achieve what I want then (:

-Here's some of the pictures that we took that day-

2008-08-04T20:19:00.000-07:00

❤　上帝给你插上风的翅膀，

让你带着花的味道，

来传播爱的种子，

我问上帝，跌落在我身上的种子

是不是真的属于我？

上帝也困惑了...”

如果说你感动风中有些动静

; 那是因为我在想你 ❤　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

FOUR SEASON'S OUTING!!!

2008-08-03T22:43:00.000-07:00

3rd of August (Sunday):

outing with three season ,at pp (:

If i am not wrong, it's been really 4 long months since we ever meet up. We are always busy with our life.I am glad to know that you guys are having a fruitful life. This's something nice to heard from you all. Even though life's really tiring and hard on us, we never fail and try our best to overcome those difficulties & setbacks. LOVES !!!

BACK.

2008-08-03T21:32:00.000-07:00

Moved back again to blogger.
Cus livejournal is kidda hard to upload pictures.The uploading rate is so slow.

I am going to post some pictures that I've collected for the past last week.

so let's my picture tell e story (:

30/07/08 Wednesday :

photography module, on studio lighting part 2 (emotional expression of ppl):

Family protrait! (with 5 diff expression 'sad','lust','angry','goodness','mystery')

MY SHOT for the theme'Mystery':

Notice sharon's was shooting for 'Lust'? Rihanna is so sexy (:

Lizann,looking so pretty!

My final photo that I've chosen for the day:

INTO:

BYE BYE, old home!

2008-08-02T23:35:00.000-07:00

The photos are not taken for today.

went back clearing stuffs in my old hse. Now then, I realised that my hse can be so empty and spacious after clearing away all the stuffs. There's are simply toomuch rubbish stacked up before that.

My new hse:

My old hse, clear after moving:

Empty cabinet

view from my living room, spot that small buliding there.It's once my pri school~nice memories filled up e soon to be demolish place.

Taken on saturday before going out for facial treatment with mummy.she's the one who force me to go for the treatment whenby I simply hate this type of thing although it's help in improving my facial appearance. "I am lazy!" There's always this phrase that say.."there's no ugly people on this earth ;there's only lazy people who don't wanna take care of their facial appearance"

My sis's sunglasses (;

while waiting for mum^~

BYE BYE, OLD HOME!!!

"Koizora "

2008-02-13T20:06:00.000-08:00

This movie is nice and touching ~
It's been make into a movie from the original popular hp novel by a twenty plus lady.Therefore, it's based on her own real life story!!!

I heard that it' s gonna be up in the movie theatre ard march ~

One negative comment abt this movie is that it's a bit long-winded~

w14c photos

2008-02-13T19:36:00.000-08:00

HELLO !!!

School vacation had started for me.
It's been days after the last day of school.I have to say that I am a bit sad to leave w14c after staying tgh for four months again. I thought that I wouldn't be a bit sad to leave the class or even hope to leave the class sooner. I think this time I am wrong. Morever, I don't even know that I can be myself , enjoying and relax-ing on the very last day we gather tgh. I will miss all of them (:

Thanks !!!!

I shall post some pic that I have now..As for the rest of the pic, I will post some other day!!!

yang^2,me,suyani,wenkai,weijie (:

blar

2008-01-28T23:42:00.000-08:00

I am finally back at school, after a self-proclaimed holidays since last friday.time pass really fast~it's tuesday once again!!! I simply feel more energetic after the few days rest.

Glad to say that, today was quite a good day for me!
we get to select our own team mates, people that we want to work with.
We have our own scary story-telling session in our own team...kidda funny~

Anyway, three more days to holiday..and I will be offically considered a second year student.

BACK~

2008-01-27T20:54:00.000-08:00

Hey, diary ~ I am back after, like disappearing for almost 3 months from this blog here.

the reason for coming back and updating everything here is rather simple, for people to view and for friend to be updated with my current life.

Hmm..what should I talk about?

Just 4 more days and be free from school temporary, having my 2 months break. I will be offically a secondary year student after the break. I don't feel sad about becoming a second year student.I seriously don't really like being a student here in my school.It's really suck a lot ~ schooling here is borning.It's can actually drain away all my passion I have for design and the dreams that I hold in respect for.For the whole one year, I really have lot of doubts over the thing that I learnt and for why and what have it got to do with my diploma? However,I told myself that it's purely for one purpose, to add on to my knowledge that I have. yes, somehow, it's useful and benefit me.

OH!! GOD!!!

life here is so stressful and tiring.

the people that i know here, are not really good soul. (sorry^I have to admit the fact this is)

I don't feel like I am schooling.Instead, I feel like I am working. People here are in to this "political war", frighting for all the "AAA"(which are like promotion), getting into favour of faci.

I want to ask them, what good does it do when you are respecting a person just for the sake of your own benefit? it's it real? It's fake..you know?

I don't CARE what they are doing and thinking.

It's draining my energy and motivation away.

I gonna carry on, on my own till the end.

I wanna change how thing are right now, even it's mean losing at the very end.

2007-09-19T19:24:00.000-07:00

Another entry since donnoe when i last posted?

hmm.. school re-open ~!!!
I am once back to study mode since the start of the first day in a new class, w14c with new classmates, new facci for another four months, which means I will have to start adjusting to the new environment, surrounded with all the new faces that I have never see before. You know? I really hate that. Maybe, cus my adjusting level of ability is low.... thus, it's seem just a difficult chore for me to handle with.

I wonder why too? there's one particular "BIG" problem with me all these time along.
tend to be quite shy whenever I meet new ppl.. and I just wouldn't speak properly.....
AHHHHHH...and of course, I do know that this is one major problem that I need to overcome with....

Any idea on how I can overcome this weakness of mine???

Anw, back to my class ,....
my class's ppl are extremely hardworking esp when they are serious at work.That's one thing kidda wierd with this class. People here seldom goes down for break. They would rather stay in class and play com or doing their work. WIERD^^^???? This is one of the interesting fact that I find out after been here for 4 days...

There ar of course a few interesting character in the class too..

It's very much different from my previous class which are more playful and slack. However, I still prefer been in W35G. I feel more comfortable been with them. I am able to speak my mind better here. I must say I really miss the previous class (: MISSED*

Cameron highlands trip (part one)

2007-09-09T22:26:00.001-07:00

Cameron Higlands, part one entries

(Four days trip)

hei guys (:
I am back again, to blog about my daily life.
I have been quite busy these few days, working and also helping out at my mummy's workplace.
Finally find some tym to blog about my recent trip to cameron highlands.
I am some disppointed with some of the resolution of some of the pics I took. *sadden* My digital cam is not working well and my another good camera ^the lenses is spoilt. haix~ wells, I will have to make do with these :(
weather :: Rainy = Cold

28th of august,2007

2007-08-29T21:41:00.000-07:00

28th of August,2007

Photo update of passport at ICA in the morning ^^

Hanging out with PJ <3>

JUST wanna take this chance here to thank PJ for accompany me thr the few hours waiting in the ICA building for the update of my passport photo.

Plus sorry for making u wait for such a long time, going on hunger-strike.

You know? We wait for almost 5 hrs there just to get that photo updated. It's take such a long time processing the pictures and the particular. Furthermore, there's only one interview room open...... ZZZ :( while waiting there in the morning alone, I spent some time reading through the photoshop book that I borrow from the library. I realised one thing. There are really a lot more that I need to explore about photoshop. I guess I have to put in more effort in learning all that.

JIAYOU (:

There's something that I need to learn in order to protect my rice bowl in e near future.

I can't do anything more except this. Perharp my passion and interest toward it does really helps me. Talent=? did I ever own it? wells, I will find out in the near future.

After the passport thingy, the both of us went to bugis to have our nice yummy meal. LOVES :)

My eyes pops out whenever I see trace of food. <3>

Did I ever mention that I will be going on a holiday this weekend? LOLs.so the rush to update my photo.

After the meal, we just walk ard the area, reading books in the bookstore...

I did not brought much stuffs. Cus, my pocket is rather tight. I just brought a PC game in the end. Hopfully, It's can cure my boredoom at home.

BTW, we also took lots of the photos ard the area, streets.

I realised that my passion and desire to learn photography is getting deeper and deeper.

You know? I really envious of those people out there who are able to puck up their courage to take photographs at the streets, ignoring the strange views from passer-by.

How I yearn that I can do that?

Maybe one day, I can be like them.

GAme

2007-08-28T21:28:00.000-07:00

CUS of SM:: I will have to do this.

No worries, I can still pass this on to others. haha :)))

Rules of the game: each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. people who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. at the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. no tagbacks! :D

I love to cry for nothing.
I am crazy fan of k-dramas.
I love to skip stairs.
I love to dreams about unrealistic things
Writing novel.
watching movie alone? wierd^^
I love to go jogging whenever I feel down.
LOve photography.
owning a lodging hse outside the city??
owning a tweety which is transform into a doll.

Happy birthday, peijia !!!!

2007-08-26T21:29:00.000-07:00

PEIJIA's birthday. K-box session wif guys ~!!!!
19/08/2007, Sunday

<3>

Happy Birthday, Peijia ~!!!!

To me, you are always a great friend that I have.

I really enjoy and treasure all the moments that we have spent tgh.

No words would express our friendship.

You are the one that make my day and been always be there for me whenever I need it.I hope that our friendship can carry on.........

2007-08-26T20:22:00.000-07:00

26/08/2007, Monday (RECAP OF THE PAST WEEK ~)
It's gonna be a long post.

I am back.
First semester for school have end-ed.
Which means my hols start from today onwards, lasting for three weeks.

Something stressful happened.
Remember? I attended a workshop for my course on digital imaging.

It's was really a nice and useful workshop for me as I get to explore more on the world of creativity. I sort of think that the faci were all quite nice to get along with. I have a lot more to learn from them. This is a good sign for me. As I will sooner or later get to see and face them more when I get into my course nxt year.You know? you know? How I yearn that I can go straight into the study of my course as soon as possible. It's always better to learn something which you are more focused and good at rather than doing all those modules which I am weak at. At least, It's motivate me to study better.

We need to submit a poster work using adobe photoshop after the end of the workshop, which then we will be awarded another point. One of the other point is only for attendance. I heard from the faci that the Da point is hard to get which mean that our work has to be nice.

Why am I stressing over such small matter when this is only a begining of all these?
There are more for me to stress over and getting crazy at?
I think I am giving myself too much stress.

Giving too much stress..there is only one reason for it.
That's cus I care and wanna to do my best.
I wanna do well for the thing that I like.

This remind me of the quorte that one of my faci give ::

"There are lots of thing that catches our eyes in life, there's are only a few which touches our heart.Persue those"

Really. It's often sort of hard to find something which u love a lot.

Hiding. Hiding from what I feel at the begining.
Why am I always like that?
I wonder at the wall, everything ard me.
Yet, I can't find any answer that I want.

It's sound stupid.

Perhap, maybe? I do_________.
Everytimes, I tried. I fail. why?

I sound silly.

Photos uploaded .

W35G-Last day together ^^

K-BOX~!!!
What is Queenie doing?

VIDEO AT THE KBOX !!!!

different brands

2007-08-13T20:01:00.000-07:00

This speaker from unknown source.

My printer which is from Epson.

Next is my keyboard, which is of HP.

The CPU, from two brands-samsung and compact.

This is the moniter of my dp, from samsung.

All these brands mention above made up my dp.
hahas. Lame. yes?/
just a random post.

slacking.

2007-08-10T07:58:00.000-07:00

Just another random post on what happen today for me :))
Today I did not go to schoola nd I slack at home.
you know? self-declare hol for myself.

And I wasted my whole day cam-whoring.
hahas.
But I did do something useful.
mopping the floor.
then, then I still did not manage to clear out the mess accumulated at my room.

some pics ::

Four Season's outing :)))

2007-08-10T07:38:00.000-07:00

Hey hey..I know it's been really a long time since I ever blogged.
I have been quite busy these days..as if??
Anw, I went out with four season last week to celebrate SM's belated birthday ya :)))
We shop ard and give SM's a treat at seoul garden. Simply yummy and nice ^^^
You know? I really feel so relax when I went out with u guys.
I really hope thatw e can maintain this close relationship for ages.
But, I really lose trust in this particular word called "FOREVER". It's really hard to believe in. Maybe, I had really grown up a lot, going through lots of thing and this make mi even more clear that FOREVER really or maybe don't exist at all.

TO JZ, SM & PJ :

Is it's all right for me to upload the pics here? As for the remaining pics, I can send u all thr msn. So that, it's will a bit faster, okay??

我需要力量 :)) 很多很多.

2007-08-06T06:43:00.000-07:00

其实你们不说的事,我都懂.
我真的都懂.但是我不想把原本看似简单的事情搞到天翻地覆.
所以,我选择沉默不语.

我不想再去理会别人的无聊话语,也不想再面对你们.
你知道我需要以一张笑脸面对你们虚假的关坏是多么的痛苦的吗?
你们晓得吗?

既然如此,我们都不要再欺骗彼此好了.

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我真的很累了.
有些事不能改写,我终于明白.
本来,就不该妄想,期待什么会有奇迹的发生的...................
现在,心情糟透了不,突然脑海闪起了一个想法,就是去跑步.
我也不晓得为什么每次伤心难过的时候就想以跑步来忘记悲伤.

我突然想见你,诉说我此刻的心情....

我只是想过个平凡的生活,也那么的难吗?
越容易简单的事与物,就越难得到.
我离我的梦想的距离越来越远了.

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我自认最了解我的人其实根本一点都不了解我.
你知道吗?我就是相信你才会跟你诉说我的烦脑.可是,你的反应却让我对你非常的失望.
原来如此而已.

对不起,我真的不太勇敢.
哥哥,原来长大一点都不好玩.

我需要力量 :))

sorry~ I start and end0ed this entry with such a emo-ing mood.
actually wanna post the pictures that I take wif four season de.
but, I think I will be all right soon ya :D
(forcing a smile is my talent ) ^ anw, Life is alla bout getting hurt and recover...
this continuce...

down the memory lane...............

2007-08-02T08:10:00.000-07:00

You.
How i wish that I would turn back time?
How I wish that I will have the chance to express myself?
There's no way to rewind back to the past.
yes. I had move on.
Therefore, I shouldn't be shaken once again.
Although, I know well enough that it's often hard to forget.
But, haven't I done that pretty well all this while?
I should continuce with what I have been doing all along.

Since, it's over.
Let's the memories remain in the past.
Don't ever bang into my life ever again.

Culinary rawkz ~!!!

2007-07-30T19:08:00.000-07:00

back to updating.
I realised that I am craving for blogging nowadays.
I donnoe why also.
Just feel like blogging.

>.< wierd ^~^

I made my first lunch box for someone -my mummy.
Hahas. I took it to her workplace during dinner. I know she is very happy about it.
She told me that her friend was kidda envious of her and of course cheer for my culinary skills (HEHE^^) I have got some pics of the whole process :D update later ya :)))

I Love culinary more and more. I simply love to cook for my loved one.
One thing to note : TIRED and more tired.

The lunch box

The soup

The cucumber and carrots used for making soup

The prawns after peeling

^^^NOTICE^^^
I get the great news from kat and others that there's will be no school tmr. Cus, PMP is visiting our school todae and so so..School is close tmr.
Hahas. Glad that he actually visit us!!!!

you know? It's like losing interest for school after slacking for a few days.
The hols day mood is still there in the air.

Malaysia's trip

2007-07-30T13:49:00.000-07:00

Once again, I did not attend school today.
Monday bluesss^^
It's not cus I am slacking or what.
It's just that I went on a short trip to malaysia ytd, arriving back to singapore at ard 12 plus.
It's been a rather tried day for me as I wake up at ard 6am, reach home at ard 12 plus.
I am dead-beat. so that's why never attend school today.
(finding excuses again....)

Ytd had been a rather long day for me.
The journey on the bus was quite long.
(From one place to another)...Ohhh, I can see that malaysia is a very big country, with a huge spce of land as compared to us. hahas.

It's came as rather a surpise for me as that I actually did not vomit at all throughout the whole bus ride. (you know? I was allergy to bus...) sort of wierd type of sickness >.<

hmm..It's was rather a different thing from what they( the ppl in charge) told us before the day.
They told us that we are going to the orchard for sampling of durians. It's ended up that the durians are not nice enough for sampling. *disppointment *

Due to the delay in the schedule ( lots of waiting : at the custom..)
we ended up with only limited time.
Foods served at the restaurant were okays. (At least, we get to try the lobster) *hahas*
I realised one fact about the lobster. (It's not as delicious as what I often see in the tv. The taste was quite similar as compared to the prawns.) maybe , it's !!!!~~~

One thing to note :
The ppl sitting at the same table with us are all selfish human-being.
Despite seeing the fact that we haven't even settle down, they started taking their chopsticks eating as if they were afraid to be lose out. *Kiashu *
There were 10 ppl sitting at a table. Yet, they only take what they don'd have and don't even bother telling the waitress that we need 1o set of untensils for the table.

So you see? WHY should we care for ppl who don't even know what is the meaning of respect for others? So, I wouldn't even care whether there are enough food for them. I just went on taking food for my family..................

(ROAR ...>>>)

PICTURES

Taken at the temple ~^^^

(Taken from the bus..road view )

(more updates ^^^.................)

Back.

2007-07-28T00:45:00.000-07:00

I am back.
I know that I have not been updating my blog for quite a long period of time.
Due to some errors that keep appearing at my blog, I can't update the posts.
Therefore, I decided to change my skin again.
The new skin is quite plain and simple.
I just want to make it in this way, simple.

Life haven't been good to me in any way.
Maybe, there are. Maybe , I am just not contented.
That's make it difficult for me to feel happiness.
You know? It's often hard for us to feel contented with life.
We just keep wanting more.
We often ended up getting ourself hurt in the end.

hmm..there's are lots of thing happening these few days.
changes occurring without my notice.
Problems keep appearing on the surface.
Tons of mis-understanding waiting for me to clear up the mess.

AND, I will be changing class in ard three weeks time.
I think I will just get used to it after experiencing the changing class culture for a few more times. So, let's hope for the best~

I realised one thing.
I am actually learning to grow up everyday.
I am searching aimlessly for my dreams, finding ways to achieve it.
It's really very difficult.

I know I am changing.
That's what you told me.
Isn't it to the better or to the worst?
I donnoe, but I know that our friendship will not change not matter what.
My heart still stay with you ya :))
Trust carry a impt role in our relationship.
let's continuce to trust each other from now on, just like before.

PICTURES
Taken ytd using michelle's cam :))
Our formal-wear during enetrpise skills module at the lecture theatre :D
Cool :))Almost the whole class wear formal-wear to school.This is a rare scene~^^
Thsi should be the first class photo we have ever taken tgh .^^
(edited by kat)

Just a scene of what happens in the class :)^^

pics--cam-whoring

2007-07-27T10:16:00.000-07:00

QUEENIE's birthday ~!!!!

2007-07-27T09:47:00.000-07:00

千手观音：）

Two guys? They are part of the girl's gang.

Edited by me. ^^(they say it's look like the disco.what do you think?)

All girls >.<

花猫：）

Queenie's birthday cake. *YUMMY*

Making a wish?

Today is the big day for QUEENIE ~!!!

It's her birthday ya :))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!

I hope you enjoy yourself today, with the mini celebration from us .

From the day I know her till now, I find and feel that she is a cheerful girl who love cracking jokes. She make my day ^^RAWKS.

I guess that this imust be the work of fate to be able to know you.

we are actually living quite near to each other.

Although living so near to each other, it's been kidda wierd that I did not ever rmb seeing her ard the estate at all.

We actually travel all the way to rp, and get to know each of us there.

Hope that we will still travel home tgh, even after changing class in ard three weeks time.

okay?

我们的美好地铁之旅，哈哈：）））要延续下去呀~!!!

Richness does the work???? yes or no

2007-07-23T07:11:00.000-07:00

梦想跟现实的分别 :((

:: Part 2 ::

If if... if I have all the money in this green world ??

Would I be able to achieve and attain my dreams in a much easier method and faster time?

If only my dreams do not need the power of money to achieve, how great would it be? isn't it?

sometimes, I had this type of materialistic thinking ; if I am been born into a rich family, with parents pamper me with everything I want in this large world . I guess and I am sure that I will be able to do what ever thing I wanna to, pick up whatever courses or skills that I want to.

Although, I am not born into a rich family. However, I am alr very contented with what I have. The concern and love from my family, education they provide me, enough food and shelter to survive and live under the roof.

With the use of my hands and legs , a protected brain. I do can create micracles that belong to me. All I need is the belief to believe that I can do it.

hmm.

nothing much to update these days.

>.<>

Anybody who is still alive at my blog?

Can't expect much from schooling life.

It's more of studying, learning new thing and trying to widen our social circle, entertaining all type of people, smiling and try ways to fix into them.

Is that what life hold for us?

Just to be born into this world, learning and repeating all these process ; getting hurt and recover from sadness and this continuce on till we leave this world.

what do we search for in life?

I am not been emo-ing.

I am just wondering about all these in space , suddenly has the urge of noting this down.

I took lots of photos these days.

I will upload some of them here.

Cus, my blog's seem empty.

Awaiting is really a painful process.

when can I ever has enough courage to wait on ?

When can I ever be myself ; the real me in this made up of fake vs real world?

I am trying very hard from now on.

Replies...

2007-07-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

Nothing much to update today.
Anw, weekend is gonna be here really soon.
Jiayou ~!!! one more day.

haha.
say I never reply to tags. I am lazy haha :)))
However, I do read the comments left by you all.
My tagboard is like dead. soon.

Replies to tag ::
Kat :Thanks. I will try ways to stay cheerful from now on. haha. yes, I have fun during the weekend. hope you are too okay?
Queenie:我懒得煮啦。。晚餐也要煮，所以，早上就随便吃好了！！！
KAHWAI: not retarded lah.. you should say it's cute :D
Lizann: The show is very touching ya, esp till the end. nearly feel like crying. My dreams will success one day right? as long as we believe in.. hope yr dream as a singer will...........

One day out at home

2007-07-18T12:57:00.000-07:00

haha.

I never attend school today.

Just feeling so tired and still mad at someone.

Don't feel like seeing her.

Ya`~ people's thought and opinions do affect me physical and menally.

seem like I am rather weak in controling my emotions.

Lots more to improve to be a better person.

Just realised it's really hard for us to be the person people wanna us to be.

so,,???? (try to be yourself)

I realised one thing.

There's a person who think and feel exactly almost the same as me.

难不成他是世界上的另一个我？哈哈 :D
There's a high possiblity !!!

stay at home. You thought that I did not go to school, can relax at home or hang out ?

haha :)) you are wrong.

I have to helps out of housework. There's are lots to be done.

cleaning, cooking, mopping,washing......................

(ROAR......)

It's cloudy here at the area I am living.

It's look like it's gonna to rain.

I will post more picture later.

ROAR

2007-07-17T23:20:00.000-07:00

oooo ya :DDD

I feel so sleepy ya :))

A stress-day had just passed. (Glad)

I am still angry at someone. I am so so angry still.
How can you wrong me, without any concrete evidence, just JTC?
(ROARRRRRRRR..............................)

Blar blar....

2007-07-16T08:07:00.001-07:00

School start again.
It's once again a brand new week for schooling.
*Stressed*

I donnoe what is actually happening to me these days?

Why am I feeling so restless , feeling stress and borning about everything that I am supposed to do every now and then?

Why am I not able to find any interest and motivation in doing the right thing that I should be doing nowadays?

I am feeling so sick of repeating all those process everyday in my life? I think I can't tolerate anymore? Why am I suffering in silence for thing that is not the truth at all? Why am I feeling sad when people changed the actual fact that is not the truth at all? while, i can only stand there keeping quiet, hiding behind a smile and keeping that thing will be all right?

Why can't I even stand out for myself? even once.

*By the way , I change my skin. Give me some opinions about the current skin as compared to the previous one okays? I will truely thanks you for that ~~

Photo-taking session !!!!~~~~~

2007-07-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

Really have a fun day out with my best buddy.~

We were supposed to be hanging out for a movie..the so so does not interest me showing Harry Potter. As u all know, I dislike watching amination, all kid show..

However, I decided to watch is for the sake of habit. why habit? the fact that we always watch it tgh for the past three series of harry potter. you know? it symbolise our frendship. Too bad ~sha was not able to join us tgh..cus she had to work today.It's been really a long time since I ever saw her. I miss her so much ~!!! we shall try to meet up soon k???

However, we went to the wrong meeting place. We actually forget to tell xuan that we change the venue. So, we went to vivo to look for xuan.

Too bad ~ The tickets are all sold out at vivo. Sadden ~^^

We are unable to watch the show. Btw, xuan's mother and sis went there too. However, we are going our different way.

So,so...the schedule for the day is cancel again. (Re-schedule again ^)

we sat at those empty seat there, chatting. ( nothing to do....) we look at the sky out there. It's very bluezz. suddenly, I had the urge of going outdoor for tanning. I still feel and think that I am more suitable for outdoor activities, better than shopping....

Therefore, we decided to go outdoor for photo-taking session.

Oh Gosh ~!!! we took so many pictures out there...then, I realised that there are really lots of tourists there, taking those those so expensive camera that I desire for.How I wish that I can be the one owning the camera.

I did not bring my camera out today. (thought that we are watching movie ....)

haix ~!!! we played with water and get wet all over. You see? I am so enthu >.<

The weather for the day is sunny and just nice for out-door activities t0o be held. NICE ^^

After all those cam-whoring , we went to another place.

I love photo-taking ... I feel like ........

the feeling is wonderful.. to be able to do what we want without anybody stopping us.

YEAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Random lala....

2007-07-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

Lala...

Just random picture when we went to buy some cooking stuffs :DD

I know we look silly ya :)) but never mind, at least I shown my true side in front of people I love.

It's better than putting a smile in front of ppl that you don't feel like.

Do you share my opinion?

I love my family. :)))) really so.

Photojournalism?

2007-07-11T07:48:00.000-07:00

“普通的摄影家只能捕捉一般人眼中的世界，水泥般冰冷的建筑，和凝固的画面 ”

“而富有感情的摄影家镜头前的都是有生命的，有悲喜的，有故事的 ”

那麽，我想我只不过什么都不是。。。
原来，自己一直以已为荣的作品，只不过是一堆不合格的淘汰作品而已。
我真的实在太天真了。外表看似很简单的事情原来可以变得那么复杂。。。
说跟做，完全是两回事。
我顿时觉得自己离梦想的道路，突然又变得十分的遥远。
我的犹豫，我的想法，我的个性，都是阻挡我前进的因数之一。
烦，非常的心烦~ 是时候反省了。
我到底想要些什么呢？

ROAR ~ why do I see so many obstacles that is hindering my progress in searching for the real meaning of living in life, my dreams and also to improve my well-being??
WHY?? so tired. Yes!!! I feel so tired now.

BUT..but ... I am not giving up.

Do u know? It's always very hard for people to find their real passion in life. Therefore, we must not give it up when we finally caught hold of what we are actually looking for.

It's nice to learnt something that benefit me today.
At least, i get a better hold of photojournalism. >.<
JIAYOU ~

Emo-ing day for everybody ~

2007-07-03T07:33:00.000-07:00

Anw, I am feeling very all right now. The entry below is gonna be a long one.

Today is a emo day for lot of ppls. I wonder why too. I guess today is just not my day. It's totally bad for me ~ Firstly, I actually burn my hand when I used the water pooler (donnoe whether speeling correct ?) Now still half red. maybe gonna end up as a scar. scary right? I don't mind, just that ppl will notice and keep looking at my hand. *wierd*

I am feeling very ..(should use the word "extremely") down today due to some particular reason. It's not convenience for me to talk about this here. anyway, I am just sick of schooling life in rp..stress-over lots of stuffs..feeling so empty today. I don't wanna talk about this anymore. There's always two side to the problem. It's known as the negative and positive side. I hope that the actual situation that happened is on the positive side.
Despite knowing that this might not be the actual case or maybe it's, I choose to think positively. Tell me? If I don't , what can I do beside frowning? This is bad for health. smiling is good for our health. It's always better not to know the truth. Because, it's always the most hurtful. hurtful till that I can't tolerate it. By all means, let this be the last time that I choose to suffer in silence. I am not gonna to tolerate anymore if this happens again. I may look weak, but I am actually hard in my heart.

I don't understand? why must I suffer in silence and still pretend to put on a smile in front of other, trying to be looking opstimatic when facing matter that happens once in a while? I do that just to please other or to console myself that thing are actually getting better..
*wierd* life is totally in a mess and filled up with unknown answer. when can I ever get my courage back?

I read a book which is talking about that we must try to think in the positive side no matter what happens in our life. but how many ppl in this world can actually manage to do it? I guess there will only be a few who is able to attain till that stage. How can I say that burning my hand is a good event, happen for a good reason? Totally crap right?

02.07.2007 , Monday ~!!!

2007-07-02T08:31:00.000-07:00

Monday, a whole brand start for the month of July ~ The most tired month. There is no break in between the month. That's why I say it's gonna be a very very tired month for me. The schedule for this month will still gonna be the same.. all about schooling stuffs, exams and daily grade.The thought of this make mi *STRESS*. very stressful indeed.

hmm.. today I did something that is not quite right. { skipping lesson} see? I so bad, I cannot afford to do this again anymore. I feel guilty. yes~I did feel sorry to myself....
However, I don't really have any choice.I know it's might seem like a excuse to u all. The only one I can blame, is only myself. I am sorry, really so. I do not want to give ppl impression as like I am anti-social or sort of that. That's why I left the class. hmm.. the party-world session was quite all right, fun ya :)) okays. There's was onli one guy, tagging along. We seem like rather pai-seh when he sit there. OOhh ya. we feel pai-seh to sing in front of him. We so shy?? hahas : P
This session cost quite expennsive, ard $ 15.30, partly cos of the increasing GST. so stupid right? why must increase the GST? Thing sell and brought are becoming costly.

I donnoe wat to say today.
I am gonna start using my new diary from todae onward.
now then, I realised I keep changing diary for this 2007. Three at once.
haha :)) cos, wanna find one that I feel comfortable writing on.
I have got lots of emotion ; feelings that I wanna express on. of course ~ not here......

Random post

2007-07-01T08:22:00.000-07:00

Taken when attending relative's wedding..

Random photos :DD

bear with me..this entry is not gonna be that long ya :))
just a reflection of me after attending the wedding dinner.
I am a person who is very emotional, meaning that I can get happy and sad over small thing.
Really, I really feel touched when they shown the slides that the bride and bride-grown have gone through tgh. I realised that time factor play a important part in a blissful marriage. So, It's very important for us to find one that is the most suitable for us.

HEARTS.

2007-06-26T08:18:00.000-07:00

I wanna change my skin.

It's hard to find something that I like for the moment being.

I think this also applied to relationship.

It's often hard to find the only one that we will love for the whole lifetime.

Normally, it's just awaiting.

At least, I find out that I really really love photography.

I love movies too, to a great extent.

I love sports too.

It's great to know what you love and hate to do in life.

I WANT TO BUY THE CANON CAMERA.

too expensive for me. $1,200 +++ ; guess so.

有了喜欢的事与物，让人变坚强。

忘了让你伤心的人。。。

Tired.

2007-06-26T08:13:00.001-07:00

YAWN. feeling so tired..wanna catch some sleep later. Stressful schooling life..I screw up the presentation today..due to nervousness..so sorry to myself.^^ I make a joke out of myself in front of my class..I wonder how I am going to survive here in this school for the rest of the three years. Worried that I might not be able to graduate if I continuce to be like that in this state.

told my mum that I screw up my presentation todae..she was like giving me a * Normal* look~I can understand her facial expression..It's normal happening to her..Cus, I always get into this screwing state everytime..she say ''seriously,I don't understand why u always like that de..It's not like you know yr classmate for like a short time..u been doing presenation everydae.." lols ^ I know..but yet I can't figure out why I keep doing the wrong stuffs at the important time..
u know? It's hard for ppl to understand your situation when they don't even know what is actually happening in your life..I doubt even my mum can understand my feelings and situation..what's more can I expect from ppl that are not close to me to understand me..it's kidda silly..right??

Dear god ;; please do tell me on how can I overcome the problem I am facing right now? I am going mad soon.. hahas :))

Double tired.

2007-06-25T20:14:00.000-07:00

I feel so tired.
I am so so crazy about PBL.
My dreams are getting further and further from me.
I wonder..whether will I be able to attain my dreams.
I guess not. Maybe not.
I feel so unsure .
Just now, I read someone's blog. Now , I realised I am not the one who is feeling in this way. There are so so many people out there in this world who is feeling what I am going through now.
Let's give each other a pat on the shoulder, and say JIAYOU ~ to each other.
Cheer myself up? maybe?
I dislike school"s life now.I am not doing what I choose in the first place. I feel so regret that....if if...??
why do ppl only know how to say IF???
I can't figure out.
I really miss him.
I know I am silly.
Let's me be. I tried to forget, but I can't.

TOUCHING. ; ただ、君を愛してる

2007-06-25T08:10:00.000-07:00

I saw this movie on the magazine. It look like a rather nice movie.
Thus, went to do some research more on his movie. It's indeed touching.
The name of this movie is <<ただ、君を愛してる>>. It's going to be up on july in oter country. I hope that the flim production company will buy this movie and shown up in spore. I am so looking forward to this. HEARTS.

I shall post up the overview of this story that I find from one site. read this^^ touching ya :)))

2007-03-31 22:11:49 　　来自: 猫在跳舞 (深圳)

1。　　　　
是为什么,两个人会相遇。是因为那条马路,那繁忙的人行道,还是宿命的吸引.没有特殊的特技效果,没有华丽的视觉冲击。有的,只是单纯而又能够冲击人心灵的,蜂蜜水一般的纯纯的"爱"。　　　　　　电影一开始，是圣诞期间的美国。玉木王子所扮演的诚人，追随着宫崎葵所饰演的静流，来到了美国.然后镜头被切换，我们被带回6年前。他们相遇的开始。　　　　　　

2。　　　　

她。法语系。爱吃甜面圈。喜欢说稀奇古怪的东西。有像野田妹那样的乱蓬蓬的短发。带着大大的像柯南那样的眼镜。穿着像阿久那样田原风格的服装。有慢性鼻炎，嗅觉只有正常人的1/100。发育中。喜欢上诚人后想要成长起来。会单纯的笑，但却极其敏感。还有……家族性遗传病。　　　　

他。英语系。喜爱摄影。随身带着canon黑白摄像机。有莫名的皮肤瘙痒，要时常涂抹药膏。因为这个疾病而极度不愿与别人亲近--怕被闻到身上的药味。喜欢上美雪。租了套便宜的房子在远离车站的地方。单纯。笑的时候会唔住嘴。表情呆滞。反应慢。不敏感。最后……终于发现还是喜欢静流。　　　　　　

3。　　　　

那是个明媚的早晨。他没有去大学开学典礼，在会堂外的樱花树下，沿着粉色的道路，来到了“立入禁止”的牌子前面。冥冥中被什么吸引着。山洞后面是什么。　　　　然后他遇到了她，在马路边上。她倔强举起右手，想验证是否有好心人会停下车让她过马路。他好心提醒她过去马路对面的另一个方法。于是那一瞬间，她掉了进去了。　　那是个没有底的黑洞。　　那个洞叫，“爱”。　　　　

但是在他拍下她的那一瞬间，他也开始一步步走向那个洞了吧。　　　　　

　4。　　　　

再一般的人也会有暗恋的对象。而通常他们暗恋的对象都是闪闪发亮的人。　

　于是诚人喜欢上美雪。闪闪发亮，美丽，成熟，总是被一群人围着的小万人迷。　　

所以在那个八重锦盛开的雨季，当美雪对诚人做出邀请时，他也终于开始渐渐融入那个“正常大学新鲜人”的圈子。而静流，对于一般人来说，不过是个变态女罢了。　　

所以在那些朋友以为静流是诚人的女朋友时，诚人只是一个劲地说，“只是朋友只是朋友。” 　　于是超级敏感的静流生气了。她很难过。虽然真的是朋友。但是为什么不为我辩解。我习惯了别人觉得我变态。但是为什么不帮我辩解说“她只是比较有个性罢了”呢。就像在掩饰什么一样。明明一起在闪着绿光、被晨雾缭绕的森林里一起拍照、一起寻找美丽的小鸟不是吗。静流就这么让你觉得羞愧嘛。　　　　

所以说人的感觉真得很神奇。可以灵敏到通过一个眼神一个动作就明白谁谁谁喜欢谁谁谁，也可以迟钝到3年都没发现一些事。　　　　　

后来在诚人手把手的教会了静流拍照后，整件事情，是不是开始有点点转机了。　　　　

但是诚人带着美雪过来那个只属于两个人的森林。这算什么。　　

于是静流又生气了。　　　　

我只是不愿意长大。我只是不想成长。只要我愿意，我也可以像美雪那样闪闪发亮，让你着迷。　　你信不信。你信不信。　　　　　　

5。　　　　

但是在诚人以为静流会一直讨厌美雪的时候，又看到她们两个在亲密的聊天。这时静流发出令人惊讶的宣言：“我只是，想让我喜欢的人所喜欢的人喜欢我。” 　　　　

「好きな人が好きな人を好きになった。」　　　　　　

画面接着被切回现在。美国某条大桥下，灯火绚烂，霓虹灯闪着迷离的光。在某个房间里，一个女人看了看表，飞速离开。她来到路边，举起左手。　　

这一幕似曾相识.却不是曾经的那一幕。　　　　　　

6。　　　　

大三。谁都知道，这是大学生涯的后期，进入社会的前期。学生时光玩够了，就是时候准备进入社会大学了。　　　　

所以诚人他们也无法避免得到了这个时候。而这时，静流离家出走了。于是神经大条的诚人说，“那来我家不就得了。” 　　

接下来两个人就开始了同居生活。　　

超级敏感的静流，超级粗神经的诚人。　　

越来越暧昧了。　　　　

“以后你后悔了我可不管。” 　　“诶？” 　　

“等我成长以后，你会后悔当时为什么没有抱住那么好的女孩子。” 　　

“……” 　　　　

真的后悔了啊。

真得很后悔很后悔啊。　　

当时为什么不紧紧抱住你。　　

就算会发生质变也不管。　　只要紧紧抱住你。　　

只是，想要喜欢你。　　　　

你这么可爱。这么单纯。又这么心思缜密。这么会做饭。这么爱说谎。　　　　　　

7。　　　　

静流的弟弟，还有妈妈，因为遗传病去世了。　　

一种叫“恋爱死”的病。　　

不是骗你的啊。真的是“恋爱死”啊。　　

只要恋爱上了，就很快会死了诶。　　　　

所以像那样，两个人一起围在小餐桌边坐着吃饭的时光，那种温馨的气氛，是很难得的啊。　　所以请你好好珍惜。　　　　

因此你才一直盯着我看吗。　　

一直一直。想完完全全看清楚吗。　　像看恋人那样。　　　　

“你以后可别后悔哟。后悔当年怎么没对她下手。” 　　

“知道了知道了。” 　　“……诚人，你真是个笨蛋。” 　　　　　　

8。　　　　

“诚人，你知道吗。今天是我生日。” 　　

美雪的生日。礼物是要诚人陪她去看婚纱展。　　

心情大好的诚人，邀请静流一起参加摄影比赛。　　

静流说，“那就着星期天去拍比赛要用的相片吧！” 　　

“但是已经和美学有约了……” 　　

“……” 　　

“但是事先约好了啊……” 　　

“诚人真是个魔鬼啊！先把人逗上天，再把人推进地狱的深渊。” 　　　

　…… 　　　　

“很好啊，那你就陪她去吧。　　

从那一瞬间起，我就算正式失恋了。　　

那一瞬间，你选择了美雪而不是我。” 　　　　

虽然嘴上那说，但是静流还是帮了诚人很大的忙。　　

给他去买西装。提醒他把钱准备好。帮他把药膏装进口袋。抱着皮鞋飞奔出去让他穿上。　　“慢走~”“路上小心~” 　　　　

都是为了他的约会。　　　　

这算什么。　　

是很好很好的朋友吗。　　　　　　

于是彻夜不眠。　　　　

“静流，你的生日是什么时候？” 　　　　…… 　　

“哪怕是单相思，在某种层度上都算得上是种恋爱啊。” 　　　　

“胆小鬼爱找借口。” 　　　　…… 　　　　　　

“那，你送一份份礼物给我吧。” 　　

“好啊。你想要什么？” 　　

“Kiss。” 　　　　　　

9。　　　　“

这次摄影的题目我想定为‘恋人’，一对接吻的‘恋人’。你就把它当成自画像，和我接吻。” 　　“能和诚人接吻的话，也许我会幸福的死掉的。” 　　　　

于是早晨。森林。褪去了绿色的雾气，空气是清爽的。阳光透过树叶的缝射出一束束光线。明朗的天空，没有杂质如明镜的湖泊，青翠的小草，明亮的一切。还有你。　　　　

架好相机，我要把那一瞬间记录下来，作为永远。　　　　　　

Kiss之前，把眼镜摘下的静流，似乎开始流露出女人味。　　

作为女孩子的静流。作为喜欢着诚人的静流。诚人你感觉到了吗。　　　　　　

那个吻。那么轻，那么温柔，那么绵长，那么甜蜜。　　　　

“ne，诚人。” 　　

“刚才的kiss里，有没有一点爱的感觉？” 　　　　

你感觉到了吧。　　　　　　

10。　　　　

『さよなら。　　今よで　ありがどね。』　　　　

为了寻找失踪的静流，诚人四处寻找，最后甚至生病住院。　　　　

“我，一直以为那个最初的吻，会让我们的故事开始。但是，如果我早踏出一步，也许就能和径流过上安定和谐的生活吧。” 　　　　

“然而却没想到，那成了我们的终点。” 　　　　…… 　　

“我想在那里，等着静流回来。即使我也不知道会等上多久。” 　　　　

只有这样了不是吗。既然找不到她。既然没有办法。那么只好在原定的地点等待。只要她知道那里，就能找到我对吧。　　　　　　

“有啊，不止一点。　　

在我的世界里，你就是全部。” 　　　　　　

到现在才说，会不会太晚了点？　　　　　　

11。　　　　

灯火灿烂的大桥下，夜色迷蒙。　　这是美国。然而站在诚人面前的，是美雪。　　　　“想到从前不知道她人在那里，都能傻傻等待过来，也没必要急于这一时了。” 　　

但是你看到了吗。　　

美雪微笑背后的哀伤神色。　　　　　　

12。　　　　

电话留言一条。　　

“我是里中。感谢你的来信问候。49天的法事顺利结束了。静流的骨灰也平安的送回了老家安放。一直以来，给您添了不少麻烦，我深表感谢。……” 　　　　

所谓纸包不住火，真相总有揭露的一天。诚人最后还是知道了静流已经去世的消息。　　　　　　

13。　　　　

诚人来到静流的个人画展，看到了两年来他不曾见到的静流所遇到的人事物…… 　　

再往里走点，他看到了她的照片——黑色长发，黑色礼服，闪闪发亮，变成了极具魅力的美人。　　　　是什么充满了我的眼眶，是泪水，还是酸楚？墙上一张张照片，全是诚人——诚人在睡觉，诚人在刷牙，诚人在丢石头，诚人在吃东西，诚人在发呆，诚人在走路，诚人在拍照…… 　　　　诚人回过头，看到墙上的一张照片——那张两年前她失踪前拍的那张kiss的照片，旁边还有一段话：　　『It was the only kiss,the love I have ever known...』　　　　

『生涯ただ一度のキス、ただ一度の恋』　　

（一生一次的吻，一生一次的爱）　　　　………… 　　　　

“ne，诚人。你吻我的时候，有没有一点爱的感觉呢。” 　　　　

“有啊，不止一点。在我的世界里，你就是全部。” 　　　　“ありがど、あたし..” 　　　　

『我很庆幸，我是作为静流而生，是这个世上独一无二的。』　　　　　　

14。　　　　

彼女は、よぐ嘘をいずだ。　　その嘘に、僕はもしごしふりいだい。　　

（不晓得对不对。。听写出来的。）　　　　　　

但是任何时候都一样。　　任何时候，离别都会比预期来得早。　　

即使如此，大家还是笑着说，　　

“さようなら。”总有一天会再见。　　　　

さようなら。我们会在别处相见。　　

所以我，虽然离你很远很远，但是还是想说，　　

“さようなら。我们会在别处相见。” 　　　　

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Monday blue.

2007-06-24T20:13:00.000-07:00

Monday blusssz ~~
having school todae..it's realli very borning ^^ I don't really feel sleepy now..maybe cos I just have a milk tea bubble tea in the afternoon..that's why I so active now..
donnoe why? I start to reflect on my dreams...Am I doing my best to achieve all my goals and dreams..?? I am so far away fr my dreams..can I do it?? I wonder and wonder,,no answe came into my mind..I am so troubled...
Ppl out there in this world are all doing their best to get what they want..what do I actually want and desire for? What am I looking out for in life???why am I still standing at the starting point without moving on>?
I realised that I am so like find my own talent and interest..but why why my interest are always so hard to develop into a real thing? I donnoe why too ~ If I tell ppl that I wanna be a renowned film director and photographer in the future.. it's seem like a joke to them..I don't wanna care what other ppl think of me as.. I am just me..the only one in this world.. :)))
I miss someone lots. I regret. How I wish that I can turn back time.

Random photos :))

2007-06-21T07:53:00.000-07:00

some random photos ~

pics :))))) wanchai's gang steamboat and pool outing !!!

2007-06-20T07:42:00.000-07:00

My confessions

2007-06-04T09:07:00.000-07:00

Yup. I am back.
Hols have just started for me since last friday. It lasted for two weeks only.
This is the first break I gonna have since I atended classes in a all new environment, whch is my new skool. :))) it's nice to have a break. I am so dead-beat. A hols will helps to keep my mindmore refreshed , so that i will feel more motivated when skool started.

I think this is realli a very suai {unlucky hols} for me.
I actually drop my new phone into the toilet bowl when I m working. Lols. I am so so sad now. My phone can't work now.Guess that the inner electrical pad is not working anymore. So, I will have to use my old phone for the moment being. The problem of using this old phone is that it's rather laggy..operating extremely slow. Haix~ I can only blame myself for being so careless.
luckily,my parents didn't really get a fuss out of it. In fact, I am quite brave to pick it up. If I don't pick it up, what is gonna happen to it? I didn't has a choice ya :((

I am so unlucky.. hope tis is going to be the end of all my unluckiness.
no..it's isn't !!! ~ just now, my com get infected wif virus.

i told my dad abt this. Guess wat he say " aiyo. u realli unlucky. yr phone get urius sickness. now yr cm get vrus sickness." yup..all the sickness thingy.

Snob^^ what is going to happen to my pics????
I lost some of my contact's number.... urgh!!!! hate tis*

Pls lah...ppl here and there !!!!

I AM NOT A QUIET PERSON !!!!

please don't assume you know me well. ok??
I loves to talk a lot. That's wat my parents often say abt me. They say that I am a talkative person who can talk non-stop. I just seem quiet in front of ppl that I don't understand well , ppl who I am not cmfortable with. I don't show my real self so easily to ppl out there. Sometimes, I just dun feel like talking. cus I feel that I am not so interested / dun know abt the topics. It's quite hard for me to engage in a conversation wif ppl I am not familiar with. I take time to know a person. And , I guess u all too.. so if u know me well enough, then u will know and see what type of person I realli am.

pics..

2007-06-01T08:18:00.000-07:00

I am desperate..

2007-05-29T07:31:00.000-07:00

I feel damn like no use now.
I realised that PBL is turning me insane and mad. :( ; I am tired of it.
I have enough of this.

I realised I really adapt to the learning system there in our skool . I did tried..I tried lot of time. But, u noe ma? It's just useless. No matter how hard I tried, it's not gonna help me at all. I hate all those staring faces at me. And just just now, I realised that I scored quite badly for one of my module. I am very very afraid that I will have to re-do the module all over again if I fail agan. anybody, pls tell me wat to do now. I am so s stress-up over everything. How how? what's is going to happen to me in the future? when's my future? I can't seem to see any dim of hope at all.

I just can't control my emotions. ; I admit that I am weak.
I noe i promise euu all that I am not gonna be emo anymore. I am not. I am just very worrying and stress-up.. I am desperate for help. SOS ^ send !!!!~

why am I always so so useless?
I just can't seem to get thing right? when can I do thing right?????

Lively.

2007-05-28T07:26:00.000-07:00

i
Oh. ya. have not been updating the blog for two days. I have the habit of trying to subtain myself from coming online during the weekend. This is cus I want to have more time doing my other stuffs. Having to face the com for five days everyday for hours is becoming quite a borning and tired chore for me. Therefore, I will try not to on the internet during my only free weekends.

I told euu all that I have been feeling more more better nowadays. YES ^ I feel that it's painful to torture myself , making myself feeling sad and unhappy everyday. I read a quorte from the newspaper. It talk about the topic on happiness. However, I can't really remember what it's abt..? I think I will update about this nxt time. Anyway, the quorte are very very meaningful,, I must really share nxt time.

What's up wif my weekend?? ; It's quite okay. Dunnoe why I feel like I have really grow up, , It's like I tend to cherish my bonds wif my family more and willing / feel the need to communicate wif them more. In fact, I am quite in a good term wif my family all this while. Just that, I have been growing closely wif my dad. We communicate more.. thus, relationship naturally get better !!!~~

Ever realised I become more lively ?? I told euu all before that I want to try to be more blissful. See? I am getting my actions proved to euu all. I promised myself, my mummy, my friends that I will try not to be emo anymore. I change to a very happy face skin. Isn't it nice? sometime, I.myself don't even noe what the thing I am doing? I also donnoe the reason why I am writing this journal here for who to see? Actually , I just feel the need to express my feeling somewhere. So , it's doesn't really matter where and why I write my journal?..as long as I feel it's important, comfortable with. I do write my journal somewhere else in my private journal too. ^~ This is just a form of expressing my feelings only.

I am not going to keep forcing myself or try to find a ans anymore. Actually, It's not so important anymore, right? I am so so silly to keep making myself feel so painful and hurt. All I have to do now, is just to take nature into it's course and to look at thing in a different perceptive. ~~I WON"T need a ANSWER anymore~~ ^^

I will post up some photo in my album- PHOTOGRAPHY today ~^ do check it up when euu all r free??

Angry

2007-05-24T08:53:00.000-07:00

I am feeling so angry todae :(

I m so so mad and pissed off. Don't thought that I will not feel angry sometime. As, I look so obedient or quiet at times. Euu will be wrong if euu think in this way. I AM a HUMAN_BEING. Of course, for god's sake; I will have mood swings at times. If you provoked me in any way that I don't like of, euu will see my true colours when I get angry. {A SUPER dark face} I will stare at euu , with my scary face.

AND of course, I won't get angry over small matter . In fact, I seldom get angry . It's like it is hard for euu to see me being angry for more than 10 times annually. It's quite difficult for one to make me angry unless.... euu do thing that I hate to see it happening.

HOWEVER, I was quite angry todae. :( sad ; hurt .
I am a human-being. pls. I need respect too. If euu don't respect me, wat's the point of me to respect euu back?
I noe I went a bit overboard todae. I also don't wish to see that happening too. I hate to be angry, throwing temper too. However, _____make mi realli angry. Actually, I have been keeping it myself for a long tym. I just can't tolerate anymore. That's why I get ......todae.

我终于看清了一切。我不会在留恋。我已经想通了一切。我终于知道了我一直想寻找的答案了。谢谢你！我明白了。我会祝你幸福的。
原来，一切都只是一种幻想，一个玩笑而已。

我承认我是个弱者不敢再对爱假设我真的累得不想再拉扯我寻找的平静是我将来看电影带着一颗平常心不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛我需要的平静是敢回头看曾经那些为爱患得患失的情景我选择忘记我不懂得取舍才让心痛堆着。。。。。。

又被爱伤了一遍无所谓当作成长刚刚走开的人烟还点着味道却淡了我并不是天生爱寂寞却比任何人都多就算把世界给我我还是一无所有我要快乐我要能睡的安稳有些人不抱了才温暖离开了才不恨我早应该割舍我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声心不是热的全都是假的只有眼泪是真的把从前想了一遍谢谢了伤我的人想做乐观的人每种雨声听了都不冷我并不是天生爱寂寞却比任何人都多就算把世界给我我还是一无所有我要快乐我要能睡的安稳有些人不抱了才温暖离开了才不恨我早应该割舍我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声心不是热的全都是假的我的决定是对的
我会再次把这一次当着是成长的一部份。。

I realised I get to see a more MORE clearer picture ...
This is part of growing up. OH. YES. I am growing up.

Although, it's gonna be hard. Just as what a lot of ppl say ; "You need to pay a price for growing up" ..If I can choose between growing and not growing up. I would rather pick the choice- of not growing up.

Just now, before going home. I went to e bubble tea shop planning to buy my fav drink- Milk Tea. I just simply love bubble tea so much!!! There’s a man there, buying too. I realised that he was smiling throughout the time while he was waiting for his drink. Then, there is this lady boss and her mother {which I guess so} asked this man. "I realised that you were smiling all the time while waiting for yr drink" then tis grandma add in and say " To be able to feel happy is a good thing..'' I looked at them and smile too. They r right!!! But actually how many ppl is able to do that? I guess hardly everyone living in this world is able to do so. Do euu agree wif me?

After that, the man left. I looked him. I realised one thing. He was walking happily away, with his drink in his hand. From his back view, I can see that he's realli living a happy life.

At that moment, I feel that I am so silly. Why should I make myself so emo everyday> Life's so short. Nobody knows what will happen tmr? I should try to live a happy life.

::Replies to tag ::

JZ: hahas. sure,i miss euu too. Must realli catch up one day!! I finally change skin le.
PJ : Finaly, euu r tagging me le. welcome to my blog. I noe euu always say my blog so emo de. I will try to post happy stuffs nxt tym.

.................

2007-05-23T23:26:00.001-07:00

I feel like... escaping from this place.

Dead-beat

2007-05-23T07:40:00.000-07:00

lols.

FEELING. dead-beat. ; I am so sO tired.

Not emo-ing anymore. ; I ' am fine , now.

Rmb I told euu all before my mood is just lyk a roller-coaster. YES. ; It's is.
I feel better now. Maybe cus I tried to let myself go a bit. I told myself that I must at least tried to be happy although It is gonna be hard.

>.<>NOw, I do not even care a bit of how the rest of the ppl see me as.. , I just hope that euu guys will onli lyk and seen me as someeone who I am. :) Oh! Yea. I rmb tat ; take nature for it's course. "If something is meant to be your" = EuU will never be able to escape from it. likewise, "If a thing is not meant to be your" = EUU will definitely not be able to get it no matter how hard euu tried. { It's useless//} --I saw tis phrase in one of my frend's msn nick. ; I believe in tis saying. HOW ABOUT euu all ??

Oh~ Gosh..,,.. I am standing straight in e middle of two point Been sick "ME" Feeling normal...I should know to take good care of my health. If not, I am gonna fall sick sooner or later. I just simply hate tish. Morever, there's currently a coughing bug virus spreading among all my classmates. It's like , sort of taking turns to fall sick. Somemore, it's like the class is alway not able to get the full NO. of ppl coming de. There's will be one grp, which is empty. So , eUU can see tat {THIS IS THE SICKNESS SEASON} so sick of tish virus thingy...when can we all recover??

My feeling : Don't ask me, when I don't even noe what the thing I am doing? I guess there's are just too much pride in me. I am so So silly. I noe that. JUST TO SAY { Idon't really mean that in my heart. I am just trying to act strong in front of euu} I am so so silly. I believe in god's decision. Fate is so called God's will, right? Time will tell a person's true colours. Time will let me understand euu better. I really want to noe euu better.
:-) hahas.

Oh~``Gosh!^ ;I am been aim by e teacher. 我被老师盯上了。 so scary yea :)
she even say that {whoever in my team will sit in the table near to her} oh.my.god. SO scary, right? I say"huh? so scary ya?" ; then she look at me and give me a huge smile.euu noe mah? it' lyk a devil disguise herself as a angel. Hahas. Don't take my words seriously. I am just kidding. >.<

Tired.

2007-05-22T07:45:00.000-07:00

我真的累了。
累的我连呼吸也觉的很辛苦。
我快要窒息了。。

我需要一双强而有力的手，拉我一把。
我需要一些力量。我需要你的支持。。

I am dead-beat.
I need some strength to carry on.

Wat's the point of telling yourself tat euu can do it in your heart? when euu can't even do it in yr life? I am so silly. I tried. I realli tried. but what did I get in return? I am not expecting to get anything in return, for treating euu nice.I just hope that you will understand that I am really thinking in tis way. That's all I expect.. but can I do it? I wonder,,.and wonder..no answer came into my mind.

I am really tired of faking myself.
I don't wish to do so. It's just that I wouldn't control myself, my emotions.

SHOUT OUT : I want to be myself.

I am tired. That's why I shut myself up from talking.

Dear God, please give me e strength to carry on.

<3>

What isthe reason for living?

2007-05-22T07:42:00.001-07:00

<12:59>
PLS.ti s taken from my blog at msn space. decide to post tis here. :)
yups. I m back again. I decide to move my blog to here. there's a reason behind it. I like writing my entries here. anyways, it's more convenient here . My albums are here.
my mood is like a roller-coaster ride. full of ups and down.Just now, my mum ask me one qns. "what actually do we want and live for? "do euu noe wat I ans her back.?? .. I say " to persue our happiness, to achieve our dreams and to bright up other ppl's life "Is tat realli the case? Is tis the reason why we r living in this world?
I realli donnoe too. >.<
I remember reading a book from the book store.the book state that "do you noe tat the moment euu came to this world, there will be another person who take your place and leave the world."
"have euu ever wonder why do you came to this world for?"there is a saying that say ; we came to this world, with the aim of making someone's life meaningful.
do euu believe in this saying?

Although, it's do seem a little bit... hard to believe in. However, I still choose to believe in it, simply cos that it will make me feel more blissful,knowing that I can play a impt role in other ppl's life. why not believe in thing that will make euu feel happy about it? Just as wat we always say, we must be Optimistic in life.

I am trying hard, to love my life.I hope that I will really live a blissful and happy life, everyday.

There are lot of role we all are playing in life.
I must be a good daughter to my parents. I must be a good sister, to my sisters. I must be a good student in school, to all my teacher.I must be a good friend to all my friend. I must be a good grand-daughter to my grandparents. I must be a good wife and mother to my family in the future.I must be a caring girlfriend to my loved one.

hahas.=) there are so many roles that I need to play, in my life.
there are also a lot of thing I must be able to do, in my daily life.
[I mustlearn to communicate well with my class-mate in school.]
[I mustbe able to control my emotions well]
[I must study hard.][I must try to got to school everyday]
[I must ensure that I always stay in contact with my old friendz]
[I must be a good family member at home]........blarx blar.........

I can only think of these few points for the time being.
AND..of course..I must treasure food. I should not waste any food.I must respect human-being.

Life is a tough lesson for us.
\\my entry is too long. I am so long-winded. hahas.//
I will try to update my entry if possible, everyday.
I will also upload all my photos in the album occasionally.
hahas.

<3

2007-05-06T22:14:00.000-07:00

我最近的心情，时好时环。
连我自己，都搞不清楚。你说怪不怪？做人本来就，很感伤。：（

I just feel emo..I also donnoe why??

I got lots of fotos..to be posted onto here.
I will post next tym when I m free..

........ ....... ..... ..... ....

maybe, I just get it wrong.
It's my mistake.

I miss euu so much.. <3
<3
<3

Sick...

2007-05-02T07:04:00.000-07:00

The longest distance in the world is not between life and death , ..but is that I am standing in front of you. ; but u donnoe I love euu.

oh,gosh!! this is sad ya :-(

U love a person, but u can't spell it out..? The feelings is realli very hurt. He 's standing in front of u..yet, u r not able to tell him how much u love and wat u love abt him.

Do u noe? I hate to have tish type of feelings. It jus made me feel so emo--...^^ I hope tis will nv happen to me anymore.. do u noe how much courage tat we must have , in order to confess to tat special one..??

I am currently free from all tish of feelings.

I m glad to be wat I am. u can choose not to like me, but rmb tat u can't change the way I am. I am myself, the only one in tish world. hahas :)

Skool is damn stress for me. I feel so stress-up and sick of doing presentations everydae...PBL is so borning..espcially for science lesson. I used to hate science in the past. I even thought tat I won't have to study science anymore in poly. I guess I m just wrong in thinking so. Urgh!! it's terrible..^^ so tough..i don even noe wat it is talking abt?? my brain is lyk brusting soon..lols.

I donnoe y..? I used to be very healthy in the past.but now??...i always get headache often...i guess i m falling sick soon.SOON. I hate to be sick.. :(

I will try to blog often. hahas :)

Why do I always feel so isolated from the rest? I m getting sick of tis.

I gtg now...off to bed...wat i need most now is just sleep and rest. :)

good nite!!^^

Umm...,,

2007-04-29T23:37:00.000-07:00

I am back to bloggering once again..

I am simply; not feeling well.

I m having a headache rite now..so sad..rite?
Somemore,still must give presentation. I donnoe wat is happening rite now? The topic is abt {enterpise skills}..sort of sian..lolx..my brain is brusting..I can't think of any solution..i m lyk sure get C de...aiyo^^ todae is so sad..i m losing confidence...

I can't get tank's concert tix..so sad la... :(
cos i went down late...teacher releases us late for break..

:(

I donnoe wat r u thinking?
Can u just tell me wat is in yr mind rite now??

JZ ask us whether want to go back to wanchai tmr ma...
she need to take photo of wanchai for her assignment...
should I go?

I m still in a hols mood :(

I love weekends...especialy when I spent the memorable time wif all my frendz..
I love them >.<
Thank for all the fun ya....
I have a great tym...especially when we talk crap at the foodcourt, eating The SO BIG [Happy Family] dessert..it was damn fun..
jus as wat the label of the dessert stated..we feel lyk a family of frendz..
haha :)

I think I m falling sick son.Lols.

I don't feel well,, I vomited.*

blar.

2007-04-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

一點一點
願意開始接受那無法平撫的過去
也瞭解再怎麼害怕
那無法抗拒的未來
終究不是辦法
不想再一味的逞強
不想再把顫抖的心
隱藏用強顏歡笑來代替我想笑　
出自真心的笑著

I want to laugh through with my heart.

New skool 's lyfe ;stress-ed

2007-04-20T02:06:00.000-07:00

I know I have not been blogging for quite a long tym since i ever start skool.
so here I am , going to blog about my new lyfe here.

Due to the fact that our skool is wireless, I am able to be online for as long as lyk.
Donnoe wat to say actually??
my new lyfe?? ya, it's borning for me.
Lesson end-ed quite late. Ard 4pm everydae.
However, It's much more relax here.
we have lesson for 7 hrs per dae. However, our break-time .......

I will continuce tis post when i reach home.

My new lyfe....

2007-04-06T10:05:00.000-07:00

DEAR BLOGGIE:

hi ya..
it's so late now..yet i havent slp..still chatting wif pj,jz n sm..
ooo..lol..i always chat so late these few dae wif my frendz,online.
we r mad,lol!
i realli donnoe leh..as to wat to write..i m half-awake now. :)
my lyfe since have change a lot,,after u left...
many ppl enter my lyfe..
i jus wanna say i m realli changing to be a nice person and to love myself more.
i m more brave now.
dont worry for me.

:)
i m fine now.
i m getting to love my lyfe more.
and tat i m trying to adapt well.
i m trying to love all the frendz i have made recently.

haha =)

i donnoe wat to say le..
anyway,i wanna lead a new life style.

i wanna forget the past.everythn of it.

ya..bye,,

Wan chai's gang bbq>reflection

2007-04-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

yo^^

I m back to blogging.
decide to blog todae.lol.cus have events to update lah.
first of all,we have our wanchai guys's bbq at pasir ris park ytd.
it quite fun de.we play lyk hell lol. from 2pm to 2am sia.
crazy gang.we play truth or dare..number game too.
we should start the game early lol. nv play enough lah. :)
Despite having to come after whole dae of skool,ming n jo came and join us at 8pm.lol.so nice of them to cm and gather.
alan they all kp talking abt scary stuffs>Ghost stories. we were not afraid,so interested to haering more of it lah.
umm..we have a lot of food. a lot alot of it,that we can't finish it. left-over!
don wanna waste food,so we took hm the food.lol.
we have a lot of fun todae.
we kick football,,making fun of each other.
nice of da-jie to release jiesheng earler off fr work.lol.
then,we can play.

we r so active ytd.lol. hyper,,,emo too :)

somemore,we walk all the way out to the main rd to take cab hm.lol.
reach hm at ard 2.10am.so alte lol.
still very active.donno y?
i m alwayz active at nite.
then,we even went online to chat for 1h20mins.
see?we siao liao.all not slping de.
the nite-owl.lol.

wat lao..^
i kp on get caught for the truth or dare.
choose truth of course.
i nv lie throughout the whole game.
they all lol,ask so many very pai-seh qns.
game lol.so have to answer all the qns.
no offence to some of the qns.
jz so suai lah.the shoes came off.
haha :)

hope to have more of tis type of gathering int he future.
we r frend lor.
it's fate to noe one another..so we must cherish tis frendship.lol.
must alway kp in touch.don lose contact hor.
it does't matter whether how busy we are..
as long as that,we rmb one another.
the spirit is there. make an effort to care for one another/
ya?it more impt.frendship need time and effort to bond ,as to stay together.

chalet?

u all wanna chalet? can lah.make it during the june hols.
then,we gather n play lyk siao.
play enough..

:)

my post is so long.
aiyo^ gt so mani thn to blog abt lah.

so emotional..^^

i shall stop here le.

see euu all,soon!
meanwhile,take care of yrself.
all the bst to watever path u all will be taking in the future.

we will meet again.lol

:P

lala

2007-04-01T21:41:00.000-07:00

dear bloggie:

Sorry for not blogging for so long.
I have my own personal diary :)
therefore,it quite troublesome for me to blog in two diff place,at the same time.
so,I will be blogging lesser here.

wanchai's bbq,,countdown to 2 more days :)
pretty fast,rite?
time passes so fast le.skool will be starting soon.lols.
there's still a lot of thn to prepare for the new semester.
shopping list,,blarblarx =]
there's somemore a oriention for freshmen..
lols.don feel lyk goin. it's a must^^
think i m gg..cus it always betta to noe the skool and frend well before starting skool.lols

I made a decision :)
I m gg to wait.lols. I believe in myself & euu.
tat is the last time i m making tis decision.
I noe i m silly :)
if euu feel the same as me, I will always wait for euu.
this make it meaningful. ^^

aiyO^^
peijia & I gg later to book the food.
lols.

REPlieS To taG:

rachel: Ya,,I will link euu.how euu noe my blog de?
elaine:how r euu?i m doing fine.ya^ realli long tym nv see le. euu tc la.jz damn lazy,nv put tagboard.lols.
shimei:Ok,i noe le.i will link euu too. :)

oh!God!

2007-03-28T21:33:00.000-07:00

hi:

I m pretty emo..these few dae..I guess it must be due to the stress toward a brand new study envirnoment,.
On Tuesday,I went o my new skool wif my parents for the enrolement thngy..ugh! I think I m not used to the new envirnoment.
The whole place look totally scary to me.I miss my old skool^^
I miss all my frend n teacher there.Oh! God! plz help mi adapt to the place soon,.AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!
I feel so out of place,,I m worried! The skool is damn big..wif lot of free space. I brought my laptop [Fujistu]..the whole campus is wireless>tat is cOol!!
umm..I realli REALLi miss the past..I noe I must get on wif my life.there r a lot more thing 4 mi to achieve n to explore.I noe i m silly to think in tis way...I m jus being e-mo..I simply need more time to adjust to the fact tat i m in a new skool and tat I m offically a full-time student there.,.
In life,there r a lot more difficultes n set-down to make us stronger and to push us further.
Is tat right? haha :)
I get down to work wif my mum.at her workplace. ^^
ytd,,I went to peijia,jingzhi, shimei hse there 4 badminton n discussion 4 the bbq.
Oh! damn,jingzhi told mi tat she say somethn tat is so ridiculous to someone.Oh! My God! >>wat said can't be undone.
I m so fan now.U make mi fan de..u see? don care liao..think in watever way as u all wish..
as long as I noe tat tis is not wat i m thinkin,,it 's enough already.lol.
hehe :) hope tat they won't misunderstand.lol.//
i noe tat,in my heart,,,??

##

umm..well,I alr plan of wat CCA I m gg to join le.
I wanna choose my interest>>Photography..or maybe running?/
Or even dancing?//haha =D

I m not sure whether i m gg 4 the oriention. oh!Gosh! It's a camp.lol.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I m still waiting. [wat talking me?]

^^WAITING FOR 아리 's mail.

rmb i told u before? she's my korean pen-pal. I miss her so much.
she is living in her skool's dorm.think she must have miss home.

##
^^^I think I will stp here le..^

2007-03-13T07:49:00.000-07:00

I m blogging.again.

---I have a lot to say.----
I wanna share wif others abt my feelings.

I m wondering. ]] wondering abt my future. wondering abt my lyfe.

do u face the sm problem as wat i m facing now?

the uncertain toward the future, toward yr lyfe.//

how r euu feeling now/

i m fine. except tat i can't stop myself fr thinking abt some matter.
that's the problem wif me. I m looking forward to a new lyfe in the poly. I realli wanna do well.I noe I can do it if i wanna.

do euu noe tat?

I actually make a vow when i m younger.

I am so silly then. do tat vow still count?
haha..I m writing rubbish now.

I shall stop now.

Where's my happiness?

2007-03-12T01:15:00.002-07:00

I am feeling wierd.I guess I am going to fall sick soon le. I must be mad or crazy. That is wat i told myself. I am keeping thing to myself,inside my inner heart. My heart tell me the true feeling I am having now.I wanna forget all abt tis. I am feeling very very insecure. I am feeling not real at all. Is there something wrong with me? Yes,maybe not. I donnoe. God, can u tell mi wat is happening right now in my body/my brain/ I must be sick. Do you noe tat I hate tis type of feelings so much. why do u appear in front of me? She told mi I m mad.Another she say the feeling that I m having now is just temporary/. Some told me that we must persue our happinness bravely. Am I right in thinking in tis way? {Jus wanna forget all abt tis} Oh! God! tell me wat to do/

辛福离我有多远?
very near,yet far.

haha :) I wanna change to be a better person. Yes,I must jiayou. all the way,go go!

wierd yea?I start to misss working dae wif winter,summer,spring and others.
Euu noe ma?It kidda wierd.just lyk when I have to work,I hate it.When I do not have to ..u start to miss the dae.

tat's why we say,human-being are wierd creature.

I agree. We are!

I m damn borning at hm. I wanna catch movies. I love movies.
I m looking forward to the wanchai BBQ.

jingzhi,u r too?

I love outing wif frendz,,esp when we tend to gather and eat together.

let happinness blew away my sadness blar.

to me,there's only another sadness. I am quite used to this already.
I must jiayou^^^

Random fotos ^^

2007-03-06T20:00:00.000-08:00

The past few weeks --

2007-02-28T20:24:00.000-08:00

I spent the few mth working all days long.
I m glad to know many frendz,,{josephine..mingli}
i m also glad to noe tat i m still able to do many other stuffs.
i shall post some fotos: ----[taken during my oversea's trip]

-----tis post will be continuce tmr..

My current lyfe..

2007-02-12T20:25:00.001-08:00

hi =)

I'm finally black into blogging..
i jus wanna share somthn wif euu all >>abt my current lyfe
i got back my results ]] i cried .there.
i noe it damn pai-seh,, i m thick-face..

it 's not tat i hav done badly..
file:////I passed every subject,,ex>>Science..

i cried ]] cos,i m disppointed..i think i can do better/
i feel a let-down to my teacher. i m realli very sry to euu all//

in fact,i hav done better than my prelim ..improved quite a lot.,.
however,i jus feel so sad.lols

anyway,,i gonna face the future by myself.
i wanna do better in poly. ]]tat's also a promise to god,to myself and to those who care for miies.
i love euu all.thx for all the encouragement.

euu,all make mi feel wanted.important.

thx to sir,for the support.
"Yes,i will make u feel proud of me de" ----hehe =)

thx to mr nah.
thx 4 yr advice ytd. euu rox always!
euu 'r forever a nice teacher to mi.
thx for all the concern and care euu've given mi.
i won't forget yr guidance.

thx to all my frendz {xuan,peijia ans sharifah}

I love euu all. we will be frend,forever?rite?
till we grow old.
hehe =D

I noe tat the way to persue my dream is a tough one.
however,i won't give up,,u all won't too?
it might be a lonely path.yet,i will do my best de.
cheer for mi leh,,

all the way,go go!!

it make mi feel touched,when i listen to Ayaka's song <>
I believe myself.i noe euu all believe in mi too.
Toa ll those,reading my blog: pls rmb onethn {BELIEVE YOURSELF}

The promise. _____yongpyong

2007-01-29T22:24:00.000-08:00

我相信奇迹的发生,深信不已.
我等待与你相遇的那一天.
___________________
I await euu. ]] promise are not meant to be break.

{ 천국의 나무 }

2007-01-16T20:45:00.000-08:00

For 2 dae..i have been watching [천국의 나무 ] aka Tree Of Heaven..it wow^so sad and touching..i love the cast of tis show^^

Back...

2007-01-14T20:53:00.000-08:00

I am back fr a long vacation>>
now,,staying at home=slacking.
I am oso waiting 4 call to start work^
I guess i am not able to complete my story on my own schedule time..
i am open for more ideas..
i shall blog abt my story..maybe nxt time blarx^^

I shall post some fotos ^^

As you can see,tis is how i look as when i have jus wake up^I am still not active yet>Blur##

Do you believe in fate?I brought it last wk..
it fr the Hong Kong's show.. [triangle^]
it is say to be able to bring luck and happiness to the person holding it,,

penpal

2006-11-16T01:15:00.000-08:00

I have a penpal..FINALLY!I m damn excited abt the whole thn..i guess tat is wat make life worth living 4..when we hv somethn to live for,,we will hav the courage to live on tis complicated world..my penpal is Lee,Ahree..a 16 year old gurl fr south korea..yea~I can finally practice korean wif her le..we tend to communicate thr snail mail..she will be sending mi letter by tis wk..the both of us r so so excited abt the whole thn..i guess tis ia wat make life different..the excitement of waiting for the letter..hav since brighten up my dae.. 3 more papers to go..and i m free,,>>jiayou!!! k history ytd..no..> should be 4 the past 4 dae..my brain is gonnag brust le..so mani thn to rmb..tat i can since 4get abt tat thn.. i still prefer the traditional type of diary..i put all my feelings into it..where i write all my emo-tion into it..it hav since accompany thr everydae of my life..almost 6 years already..i love it..jus simply love it >O

My emo-tion

2006-11-12T21:01:00.000-08:00

why the sudden urge to write abt my emo-tion..
haha,,hmm..i m back again..
just a few more daes..and i will b free of exams le..
isn't it glad..
by right..my emo-tion now should be full of excitement n enjoyment..
however,,it is not so..
think euu should noe wat i mean..??
i think i m realli 哀 lol..
the exam is not a 'CHICKEN FEET" to moi..
it sucha torture..
nv mind blarx..i hv think of a way to overcome my fear..lessen the impact of crying le..

My decision now::
1]read my sci tb again n revision for it start once again..
why? so tat i will be able to do well nxt year..
this mean a re-take..
second>>when i get the result nxt year>mid FEB..I won't cry so much as i hv get use to the fact tat i won't do well..
accept tat the fact..and start all over again..

I m not been pessimistic..
i m jus accepting teh fact..
tis is jus moi when i hv no other choice..

i m gonna work soon..
rite after the exams..
haha..prom nite is cumin soon le..
but yet,,i m not feeling happy abt it at all..
maybe cos of my results..partly cos of another reason..
i m jus not feeling okay..

by now..i wanna find a pen-pal..
whoever wanna b my penpal..u'r mostly welcum to be one..
add mi at [ yongpyong_8@hotmail.com ]
kum sa hamnida~

'o' lvls hcl exam..

2006-10-29T22:58:00.000-08:00

haha..i m back fr the hcl exam..
ok la..not very difficult..easier many time den prelim..aim 4 a A2.. wish mi all the bst..
hihi..4 the nxt few wks..guess i not gonna blog le..cos must study 4 exams..bless wif luck..kk..

I submitted my skin le.

2006-10-25T23:19:00.000-07:00

I make two layouts..both on gong..
so fast gt two ppl download le..
ya~
learning korean fr hapkido sir..learn chatting wif him on msn.. kum sa ham nida to him~

OOhhh

2006-10-25T21:27:00.000-07:00

yaya..hi..I m back!
Hmm..a gd new to share,, I have finish studying chpt2 of ss..it such a major topic..torture me lol,,lol..how i wish tat exams can end faster..i m so tired..right now wif all the exams stuffs..somemore,,there is some thn tat is torturing moi in my brain: wat to do if i forget all i hv study jus be4 the exams..it will be such a waste..headtache..

some pics:

I m so *TIRED**

The tabele is in a mess..

Trying to torture myself **

moved back =)

2006-10-24T22:38:00.000-07:00

I hv move back le..
my link is [http://yongpyong.blogspot.com ]

Change blog liao

2006-10-09T23:47:00.000-07:00

I change my blog liao..
change my link as well..
the new link is here:
[ http://www.xanga.com/yongpyong ]
relink pls. a lot =D

new uploaded*

2006-09-21T00:12:00.001-07:00

prelim finally over le..

2006-09-21T00:12:00.000-07:00

hi..i m back..bloggin here again abt my present life..
hmm..actually nothn much happen..
exams and exams is a rountine of my everydae life..
feel stress-up..
but wat can i do..
finally..prelim end todae..
think i did badly tis time..
heard tat physics onli 9 passes in my class..
i sure fail de..
cos i m a sci idolt lolx~

i miss him these few dae..
realli a lot..
i wanna see him,,

shall post few fotos todae..

HAPPi BriThdAe To Mi~

2006-09-12T23:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPI BRITHDAE TO MI!!!
haha =D lame lah..
i'm finally 16 yrs old liao..

I cut my hair liao..

2006-09-04T23:16:00.000-07:00

I cut my hair liao..
wat do u tink??..
haha..

kwon sang woo

2006-09-03T20:54:00.000-07:00

i m back fr my his ls..
i feel so lyk ..
jus went kwon sang woo's fanclub..
he is so sweet and nice..
support him always..
haha..
the link: [ http://www.kwongsangwoo.sg]
btw..i get tish fotos fr one of the site..

i wanna c him-[kwon sang woo] my idoL

2006-08-31T23:30:00.000-07:00

tmm..kwong sang woo is cumin to spore..
i wanna go n c him..
but den..i donnow where should i go or not..
cus there surely a lot of ppl goin de..
den..cannot see him clearly de..
should i go or not?/
i donnoe..
it my wish to c him since den..

mi >.<

2006-08-31T00:02:00.000-07:00

mi wif my frame..

found my long lost contact frend again..

2006-08-30T23:35:00.000-07:00

todae ish teacher dae celebration..
but den i nv go to skool..
cos i m very tired after doin dn t folio since 4am the dae be4..
but den..went back to skool jus now to return the folio..

i met my long..long nv contact frend jus now..
we take the bus together and chat..
den she told mi she retain le..
i ask her abt my another frend thn..
how she is getting on..
den i realise tat ppl change due to circumstances..
jus lyk how much changes hav happen between the 3 of us..
but i still feel very relax when i tok toher..
the feelings is still the sm..
i m glad to say tat..
we promised to meet each other out sum other dae lolx.

EXam fEVeR..{oh!GosH}

2006-08-26T22:14:00.000-07:00

Exam feVeR iS here aGaIn Le..NXt nXt Wk gT PrELiM le..I STiLl HaVn't StUdy..I M LaZy..SrY TO sae tat..I ShoUlD't let DowN On MysElF..ANyOtHeR Hu CarE FoR Mi..So i wIll WORk HaRd De..BuT Now..HeRe I M..STrUgGLiNg On my dEsiGn N TeCh FoLiO..The dEaDLIne is Nxt wed..haha =) I waNNa Get A1 For DesiGn N teCh..I MUst Do iT..Cus I wannA Go InTo The DEsIGn CoUsE Or mayBe Film CoURse..GOd BleSs Mi BlahX..I Noe It'll Hlp Mi de..

TIsSh Few DaE..My LiFe Is IntOtallY FeeL WIf UpS anD DoWN..I FeeL HaPPy SUmtime{I'Ll LaUGh To mySeLf..SiLly RITe?}..SumTimE..I FeeL So saD{But i DiDN'T CrIed} Cos I PRoMiSe MySeLf Tat i wOn"t cRiEd aNiMoRe Le..So i MuS GRoW Up Le..

I Hate gRoWinG Up..I Wann wann To sing S>H>E{DoN"t wanna GrOw up!}..haha =) ..I'm bEen LamE Lahs..

I M HUrT By SoMeonE..
DeeplY HuRt By tat pErsoN..
I Don eVeR WannnA See Him aniMORe lE..
I woNDer dOes It eVer MattEr To Him Mah??
No>.I NoE tat.

AnywAY..I Wanna To 4Get tat..

Btw..I Hv CrEaTeD A xanGa WeBsIte..
WheR I wrItE All ThE Movies n Drama ReViEw..
and Share WIf OtherS..
dao sHi}PlS SupPoRt Mi LoLX~

ThE woRLd iS CHangIng..
EveRYBodY CHanGe..
I Miss thE Dae..

hurt =(

2006-08-25T00:34:00.000-07:00

i m hurt..
i feel so sick rite now..
do u noe de feeling of been deeply hurt by sum1 hu euu love..
wif another gurl..happily together..
i hate tat type of feeling..
it hurt mi..
i wanna 4get abt tat..
stop thinkin anymore..
for eveythn is gone..
forever..

My dreamz~

2006-08-23T00:04:00.000-07:00

I have a dream..which is to become a director or a designer..
i HOPE I WILL be able to achieve tish dream of mine..
I wanna open a lodging hse outside the city one day..
so..guys,do euu have any places in yr mind tat euu would lyk to tell mi abt?
I will be most willing to hear fr euu all~

mi..mi

2006-08-10T07:24:00.000-07:00

Recently..
i realised i m sort of a wierd gurl..
firstly..let mi tell euu why:

I love arts..{esp.sharespeare}
i love all his works..
he's talented..
but he did not enjoy a gd life..
ppl responded by sayin {his wk is so borning}

i love rain/..
i used the term *snow* to represent rain..
rain look lyk snow..
when drops of rains fall down..?? [can euu imagine tat?]
one teacher agreed too..
tat show tat i m not mad..

i had written a story..[FALLING LEAVES]quite badly written blarx..
n years ago..
i 'll show the link:

2006-08-10T00:26:00.000-07:00

Wat makes the prefect occupation for me?

2006-08-06T04:58:00.000-07:00

"Wat make the prefect occupation for mi?"
i have been seriously giving a thought for tish..
for a long time..
i have gather information for myself..
i think i will give it a try in the entertainment industry..
when we tok abt [entertainment industry]..
the first thn tat came to ppl's mind will b "hUH? U WANNA BE A SINGER/"..
{oH! NO!} TAT IS NOT MY FORTE..
why will i wan to b a singer when i don even quite lyk singing..
haha!
well..Been a singer have been the wish of a lot of ppl..
as well as my frendz..
haha~ i would want to b a journalist writing on the various movies..
maybbe..tat is the last thn tat might came into my mind..
if I can't b a DIRECTOR..
the other occupation tat i would lyk to try out might be a designer..
or maybbe a dancer..
I LOVE DANCING..
and i m glad to say i have a wonderful dancing teacher before..
he is the one ..tat is my idol too~
his dancing is damn nice..simply wonderful~
and he is of course a nice person..
he is the only one who help mi when i need help at tat point of time..
he console mi when i weep..
telling mi tat he will be willing to help mi if i need help..
I m very grateful to him..for been such a nice person..